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Thursday, July 14, 2011
Of motherhood and law school
2010. And more than half the year of 2011 already. A lot has happened within the past year and a half. And things are still unfolding before my very eyes everyday. I am now a full-time mommy and a struggling-to-get-back-in-the-game 2nd year law student. :) And guess what? I'm loving every single minute of it. <3  walked on runway at 3:08:00 PM
Finally blogging in 2010 :)
After more than a year of inactivity, I'm back. Sheesh. I honestly kinda forgot about this site. But since law school is killing me, I need a venue to release my stress and worries (well, aside from going out with friends and family) :) So how was law school? I always say fun but crazy. Well it really is. I find satisfaction and fulfillment in studying despite the nerve-wrecking recitations and the deadly exams, not to mention the really brilliant but scary professors. That's it for now, gotta read read read. Shall be back soon. This isn't over yet. :)   walked on runway at 1:40:00 PM
Since it's 12 days til Christmas
... I am blogging, again! Yay! :) Top 5 updates: 1. I'm done with two law school entrance exams already! YAY!! I took the UP LAE last November 23 and the Ateneo Law Exam this morning. I'm just happy it's over, I guess. I only have to worry about the results, which will be released next year. :) 2. I'm starting to really feel like I'm graduating already. School's been hectic lately and all my teachers say that this semester's just gonna pass us by. Imagine, only 14 weeks for the second semester, then I'm done? Mixed emotions, definitely. Blue Roast, Baccalaureate mass and graduation ceremony, take us already? :) 3. Bri and I celebrated our 38th month already! Hooray to us! 3 years and 2 months, RELAX! HAHA. And for the record, we aren't engaged yet. So please, enough with the teasing and chismis. Haha. 4. I'm more attached to InTACT now. I find myself really involved, not just because it is my job or that I am obliged to be. My relationship with both the student facilitators' core group and my InTACT blocks improved this semester. I always find myself really looking forward to Fridays for my InTACT classes and most of my after-school stuff involve being with fellow InTACT student facilitators. And of course, I got to be closer with Sir JC, the InTACT coordinator, too. I guess part of it is because I am always in the ADSA office for my student deputies' shift. Yay for InTACT!! :) 5. I just love all my professors this semester!! Cheers to Mr. Lagliva, Mr. Server, Mr. Guevarra, Mr. Siojo, Atty. Chan and of course, Mrs. Galura! My last semester's bearable and enjoyable because of these wonderful people. I'm proud to say that I look forward to all my classes this semester! Thank youuuuuuu! :) So that's it. I'm just bored, got nothing to do on a Saturday night but be thankful for what I have right now. :) Labels: life, senior syndrome walked on runway at 9:23:00 PM
June 29, 2008 - The day I lost you
 After almost four months, I remember you. For your silence. For being the quiet, almost passive person that you were. For your thick glasses. For being ticklish. For being so sensitive whenever I tickled you. For staying in your room, watching TV all afternoon. For the countless cups of hot chocolate you never forget to give me for breakfast in Batangas. For being bolero when I asked you if you were ever in love with any other woman other than Inay. For being cheerful. For your sweet and childish smile. For your really white hair. For asking me to pluck all the white strands of hair on your eyebrows. For the sweet mangoes you harvest every summer. For waking up early to check on your pets. For your silly looking polos and shorts. For always taking care of me when I stay in Batangas for vacation. For giving me your coins whenever I wanted to buy dirty ice cream, softdrinks and fish balls. For all the Antipolo masses we've been to together. For the stories Mommy told me of how strict a dad you were. For the Pierre Cardin watch I always wear that should have been yours. For the holidays we've been together. For being the first person I go to and hug tightly upon arriving in Batangas. For the war and post-war stories you told me. For your chronic kidney disease. For the last June 28 I'll ever be with you. For the Lucena hospital you were confined in. For the last 1-hour of being alone with you in the hospital room while Mommy, Inay and Ninang Beth heard mass. For being so strong despite the effects of your strong medicines. For the experience of having to feed someone through a tube. For feeling so scared of losing someone I love so much. For staying up all night just to watch over you. For my first ever ambulance ride. For sitting right next to your head in the ambulance on our way home to Batangas. For denying the fact that you were not breathing anymore even before we reached the house. For holding back my tears in the ambulance, trying to be strong for Inay who sat behind me. For opening the door as soon as the ambulance stopped in front of the house. You fought a good fight for everyone you love. And you will forever be remembered as the man of few words, who knew when to say the right things. I never thought I would miss someone this much. I have been a complete mess during the first semester of my senior year. Every single event just kept playing in my head like it was yesterday. Things will never be the same again. You may not be with us physically, but you will always stay in our hearts. Don't worry Tatay, I'll pay you a visit soon. And I'm always praying for you. I love you dearly. May you rest in peace. walked on runway at 5:27:00 PM
My last sembreak as a college student
Time flies fast. Really. It's now almost four years since I graduated from high school. And whenever I think about it, I still can't believe it. Now it's my last month-long sembreak in Ateneo and I'm really gonna make the most out of it. Labels: ateneo sembreak 08 walked on runway at 1:04:00 AM
At almost 4 in the morning
Random thoughts
I have decided to blog out of boredom. So here are my random thoughts:
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When I fell in love... again
April 4-6, 2008. Tagaytay City. The weekend when I fell in love again. Grabe talaga. I'm literally speechless right now dahil paos ako. Di ko alam kung pano ko magsisimula. May hangover pa rin ako. Haha! Unexpectedly, nakasama ako. Gusto ko talaga pero ang naging problem lang was the money issues. And by God's grace, nakapunta ako at nagawan ng paraan. Lahat ng talks inspiring. Iba't ibang level ng pagkainspiring ang lahat ng talks. Lahat ng talks may kanya-kanyang themes na pinupunto, and collectively, they all collaborate to send us that one important message from God - God's great and unconditional love for us. Natutunan ko na di dapat tayo maging insecure kasi sa sobrang pagmamahal ni God sa atin. There are times na hindi nararamdaman pero it does not mean na wala yung pagmamahal ni God sa atin sa mga ganung situations. It IS there. We just FAIL TO ACKNOWLEDGE it. Kaya next time maisip mong di ka mahal ni Kristo, think again. His love is ever present, we just have to have faith and lose our pride. **Gaah. I love this ILC. It will forever be remembered. **Kudos to Chy, Betchai, Nina, and the whole of South A-6 :) walked on runway at 1:39:00 PM
On 2008 :)
So far, 2008 has been great. Oh wait, that's an understatement. It has been lovely and fantabulous! I'll list the top 5 reasons why 2008 has been so far a fantabulous year for good little me. :) 1. It's a new year, a great opportunity to change things, correct past mistakes, build lasting friendships, and make lots of great new memories with my loved ones. 2. My long missed blockmates will back from their vacations (junior term abroad). 3. I got my Belle De Jour planner! It's from Bri and is by far the best and greatest Christmas present I received last season. New (and really posh and pretty) planner means I'll be all about writing in it! It will contain schedules, memories, silly things, and more. 4. I started the year with my lovely ladies last January 4 when we had our post-Christmas/New Year dinner. Despite missing Joy, Jem and Ivy, we enjoyed our time together. Don't worry girls, we'll have more in the coming months! :) 5. January 1, 2008 = our 27th monthsary! Probably the best reason why my year so far has been nothing but great. :) Labels: brian, new year 2008 walked on runway at 9:10:00 PM
seven things
*from roomie SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE YOU 6) Being left by or leaving a loved one 7) Having amnesia
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On Fin 103 and stress balls
In just a few hours, around 11:30am tomorrow, it will officially be Christmas break for me. Yay! And my last class, Th 131 under Fr. Dacanay. Ironically, it was my first class for the 2nd semester as well. Weird huh? I think so too. Anyhow, I'm just writing this blog to pass time (while studying for my Th 131 quiz tomorrow) and rant about my recently concluded Fin 103 long exam. So Fin 103 long exam just ended. And how was it?? AWFUL. Incomplete data given. How are we supposed to compute for financial ratios involving an income statement and a balance sheet if ONLY the balance sheet was there?! NO INCOME STATEMENT AT ALL!!!! Really weird. I felt silly staring in space, waiting for intelligence to dawn on me. But no. I didn't get that. Nothing came out of nothing. So what did I do? I assumed a value for Sales instead. Haha And wrote the formulas to each ratio I couldn't answer (*hint hint* partial points please). Not only that. There was this objective part where we were supposed to give 5 out of 10 axioms about the fundamentals of financial management. Heck I wasn't able to memorize them. I just read them, thinking they weren't so important. And I realized I was wrong. I'm so admittedly wrong. Yet out of the 5 we were asked to supply, I think I got one. "Cash - not profits - is king" :p Not bad, 1 out of 5 which I was able to memorize with all of my heart because I personally thought it sounded cute and clever. Haha So as expected, after Fin 103 exam, the smocket was literally packed with people. Gaah. All so stressed and frustrated. I decided to join them. Since both Bri and I were so frustrated with our respective Finance exams (I was under Fin 103, he was taking Fin 102), we decided to walk to McDo. After I bought dinner, he walked me to the condo. At that moment, I realized I should NOT stress myself over silly exams. Very petty indeed. Important note to self: no matter how frustrated I get, having someone to be with is what made much more sense - no more troubling over silly exams nor stupid rantings. Cheesy but true. Maybe we all need our own human stress balls, people who are willing to deal with us despite our terrible moods and eventually make us feel better. And luckily, I got my own. Brian, my stress reliever :) walked on runway at 11:31:00 PM
To all the girls who need empowerment
Got this from Penny. This hit me really really hard. Got depressed for a little while back there. :( Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check your cellphone the next morning and be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, "I only want to be your friend", one day, then listened to him say that he loves and misses you, and the next when he doesn't want to be anything at all. Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, got crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him even for a while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us. Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated. Here's for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest everything, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again. This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder "what if". This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "You're just not the one for me." or maybe, "things were going too fast, I'm just not ready." Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so." The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their beds, and their dreams again. Here's for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave one thought about them. Here's for the time that he took to waste, breaking your heart ... again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better. This is for those confusing days, when you miss him,and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass,sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt all over again. Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When your song comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door. Think of all the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the HELL he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to. One day, you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's gonna hurt like hell, and it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal. Labels: sadness dawn on me walked on runway at 10:34:00 PM
As the semester starts
The semester just started. My subjects are Th 131, Ph 102, Hi 166, Mkt 101, LS 100, and Fin 103. Haven't met my Finance and Marketing teachers just yet. Boo for Friday night class and Saturday morning classes. :( Boo. Too lazy to blog right now. Got theo readings for tom. Hooray for Fr. Dacanay. :) walked on runway at 9:19:00 PM
Sembreak-ing
Sembreak started yesterday. Last hurrah - Philo Final Oral exam I can't believe that the semester's O-V-E-R. After sleepless nights over OpMan, Law and Philo, I'm finally free. Caffeine overload. Countless sticks. Endless headaches. Sleepless nights. Here's to more hours of sleep, sembreak escapades and more time with friends and family. Gimmicks. Beach. Serenity. walked on runway at 9:50:00 AM
Labsh Labsh Labsh
Medyo matagal na siyang umalis, months na din ang binilang. But today has got to be the day when I missed her the most. At around 3:30am, while studying for my Negotiable Instruments Finals, I decided to blog because of sheer desperation. I miss her so much. Layo kasi ng Taiwan eh. Rawr. While having a mini-block lunch (with Burn, Sheila, Ike, Sara, Toffey, Bri, Edson, Mark, and CP) in Flaming Wings yesterday, supposedly to celebrate our Opman defenses, Sheila, Burn and I missed Dianne. Well, actually wala akong ibang nasabi kundi, "Kung andito si Dianne..." Parang sira tuloy ako. Nalulungkot ako kasi wala akong makausap (besides Bri) about my thoughts and frustrations over numerous things. Dati kasi, andyan lang si Dianne. Isang katok lang sa pinto ng kabilang kwarto at ayun, andun si Dianne na malamang tulog or nakikinig ng K-Pop niya. Pero madaming nagbago. Bukod sa lumipat na ko, naging intense busy siya preparing for her JTA semester in Taiwan. Hence, less time spent before she left. At dahil medyo ilang buwan pa bago siya bumalik, it will just me going crazy over silly thoughts and frustrations. Wala akong makakausap about kasabawan sa Philo, rants about Opman sem, happiness over my Opman defense and excitement para sa next sem. Labsh, uwi ka na. Miss na talaga kita. :( walked on runway at 3:26:00 AM
Our Pre-anniversary Date :)
Last night, Brian and I went out to celebrate our 2nd year anniversary already because things are hectic starting tomorrow. So here's a brief rundown of what we did: Fort Bonifacio: Bonifacio High Street Hap Chan at Market! Market! Serendra Sonja's Cupcakes Eastwood: Barbie Almalbis live Starbucks Watched "I now pronounce you Chuck and Larry" Simple. Fun. Love. :) Labels: 2nd year anniversary walked on runway at 8:25:00 PM
On Starbucks and Losing
Starbucks Katipunan. I love. Since this semester started, I find myself coming back everyday. It's seriously habit-forming. Penny. Aileen. Mark. Hannah. Robby. Gary. Reggie. ********************************************************************************************** Ateneo lost to Lasalle yesterday. BY ONE FREAKIN' POINT. I should be happy right? But I'm not. I'm turning into a Blue Eagle already. The Archer heart seems to be hiding somewhere. But I still love my Alma Mater. Nothing can change that. Not even by studying in the blue school for college can do so. But then again, I'm supporting my school now. Go Ateneo! walked on runway at 7:39:00 AM
Sembreak, take me.
In a few weeks time, it'll all be over. I'll be resting. I'll be sleeping MORE. I'll be by the beach. I'll be spending more time with my family. I'll be gone relaxing. BUT I'll have to go through hell first. Cry buckets of tears. Tire my eyes from reading endless reading assignments. Deal with all the harshness of my 1st semester life. Oh, help me Lord. walked on runway at 9:48:00 PM
Why the hell
WHY THE HELL DO I HAVE TO BE STUCK WITH YOU EACH AND EVERY DAY OF MY FREAKIN' COLLEGE LIFE. I HATE YOU SO MUCH! I REALLY DO! walked on runway at 12:06:00 AM
Some friendships just end
It's sad when you got used to having that person around. And it sucks to be really disappointed and think that after all the years you've "known" each other, things would end JUST LIKE THAT. After much thinking, I now ask myself, "Were we ever really friends anyway?" walked on runway at 12:30:00 AM
Philo oral exam
Binago ng pasalitang pagsusulit na ito ang buhay ko bilang isang Atenista. Bandang Ala-5 ng hapon noong biyernes, naranasan ko ang pinakakinakatakutan ng halos lahat ng mag-aaral ng Unibersidad ng Ateneo de Manila na walang iba kundi ang pasalitang pagsusulit sa kursong Pilosopiya. Sa unang pagkakataon, isinalang ako sa isang maliit na silid sa Dela Costa Hall kasama ang aking guro sa nasabing kurso sa loob ng 10 minuto. Tunay ngang isa itong karanasang hindi nino man makakalimutan sa kanyang buhay. Kakaiba ito mula kahit ano pa mang pagsusulit. Kakaiba ito mula sa samu't saring kwentong narinig ko mula sa mga mag-aaral ng mataas na antas na minsan nang isinalang sa karanasang ito. Sadyang iba kapag ikaw na mismo ang dadanas dito. Ilang araw bago ang nasabing pagsusulit, napagtanto kong tama si Socrates. Sadyang pawang wala tayong alam. Hindi ko malaman kung papaano ako magsisimula sa pagsagot at pagtalakay ng mga sipi mula sa iba't ibang mahahalagang tao sa larangan ng Pilosopiya tulad nila Bertrand Russell, Rene Descartes, Gabriel Marcel, Edmund Husserl at Martin Heidegger. Pinaghalong pagkalito at pagkatanga ang naramdaman ko. Nasabi kong tunay ngang tao lamang ako na walang tunay na nalalaman. Kung kaya sinagot ko na lamang ito sa paraang nalalaman ko, ginamit ng mga puntong napagusapan sa klase at isinulat ang mga ito sa pinakaankop na paraang nakayanan ko. Nang dumating ang araw na kinatatakutan ko, pinilit kong huwag makadama ng kaba. Naalala ko ang ibinahaging salita ng aming guro mula sa bantog na si Fr. Roque Ferriols, SJ. Sinabi niya di umano na ang kaba ay isang uri ng kayabangan. Pinilit kong tanggalin ang kung ano pa mang kaba sa aking dibdib sa pag-iisip na ang tanging aking pwedeng gawin ay sabihin ang aking mga natutunan sa pinakamatapat na paraan na posible. Pumasok ako sa silid. Isinaisip kong sampung minuto lamang naman, saglit na panahon kung ikukumpara sa dalawangpu't apat na oras sa isang araw. Binati niya ako at binati ko rin naman siya. Pinapili ako ng isa sa limang papel na laman ang siping aking ilalahad sa kanya. Napili ko ang sipi mula kay Bertrand Russell. Inilahad ko ang kakaunting kong nalalaman. Matapos ang aking paglalahad, sumunod ang ilang katanunang aking sinagot gamit ang aking nalalaman. Natapos ito sa pagsasabi ng pasasalamat sa isa't isa. Sa aking paglabas, at pagmamadali papunta sa klase, naramdaman ko ang kapayapaan ng aking kalooban. Tapos na ang unang pagsabak ko sa labang iyon. Lumaban ako sa abot ng aking makakaya. Pinaglabanan ko ang kaba, takot at kahinaan ng loob. Lumabas akong buhay, taas noong nasabi sa sarili kong "Kinaya ko ang pagsubok na iyon". Kaya kahit ano pa man ang aking nakuhang marka para sa pagsusulit na iyon, masaya na lamang akong tapos na sa ngayon ang paghihirap na iyon. Labels: Philo orals walked on runway at 5:35:00 PM
My marrying age? Haha!
Got this from Migo :) Haha! This may be possible BUT I would have to finish law school first! :) [ ] I know how to make a pot of walked on runway at 7:05:00 PM
Hell week ended right this time
August 21-25. Labor law midterms.Special contracts and Negotiable Instruments midterms.InTACT training.ADSA office shift.Opman 2nd long test scores.OpMan. How it ended? August 25 Philo orals sign-ups in the morning (fucked up coz i signed up sa time ng Tax class ko kasi Aug 31 is Monday sked nga pala).Starbucks to study for law.Special contracts and Negotiable Instruments midterms.Late for 20 freakin' minutes(No need for extra blue book pala).Starbucks again.Shakey's for a while. Day ender: Greenhills with Bri.Dimsum n' Dumplings.Starbucks oatmeal cookie.Pilita Corrales.Window shopping.Drag Queens. Labels: brian, greenhills walked on runway at 12:41:00 AM
My bittersweet pre-birthday weekend
Yes. It's almost my birthday. Sheesh. A year older and definitely wiser. Yet despite of it all, this weekend was bittersweet. Things happened that all went by without me even being given a time to comprehend and digest. walked on runway at 3:20:00 PM
Bakit Single Pa Rin Ang Status Mo???
I liked this blog! Got it from Bel Tamayo's blog :) Whew! This would prolly apply to many people I know. It did to me, before. HAHA! :) Bakit Single ang Status Mo ? 10. Destiny Adik Eto yung mga naghihintay kay "Destiny" na gumawa ng paraan para pagtagpuin sila ng kanilang mga "partner in life"... Ayannn... Kapapanood nyo ng "Serendipity" eh feeling nila ang nangyari sa movie eh mangyayari rin sa kanila... Such a cliche... Hindi ba nila alam na kung walang effort, destiny is useless... 9. Perfectionist/ Mapili Yes, isang taong perpeksiyonista. .. Yung tipong dapat ganito ang magiging kapartner ko... Pag may nakilala, nakita lang na pangit ang kuko o may dumi lang, turn-off na agad... O kaya ang daming ayaw. Ayaw sa mabait - boring daw, gusto ng bad boy/pilya pero kapag pinaiyak ka, tatanungin ka bakit ang sama mo at bakit mo nagawa yun! Adik ka ba?! Ayaw sa cute, ayaw din naman sa panget. Meron dyan gusto ka ayaw mo naman. Ung gusto mo eh halos magtambling ka pero deadma pa rin yang stunts mo sa kanya! Pasaway ka rin e! Ano ba talaga kuya? 8. Busy-busyhan Opo, eto yung ang mundo e gumagalaw lang sa libro at ballpen kung estudyante ka o kaya naman sa computer at files kung office staff ka. Yung tipong aalis ng bahay ng alas 6 o alas 7 ng umaga at uuwi ng bahay ng 6 hanggang alas 8 ng gabi [baligtad naman para sa mga nag tratrabaho sa call center].. Sabay tulog na.. Kapag Sabado masaya na sila sa Internet (o sa Multiply), sa pagkain na niluluto ni mama at sa Linggo naman sisimba at maghahanda na ng kelangan para sa lunes hanggang byernes.. Pssssst.. Pause for awhile.. 7. Friendship Theory Ano naman ito? Eto yung ang buhay ay kay bestfriend o kaya kay special friend na hindi masasabi-sabi sa friendship nya sa loob ng kanilang mahabang panahon na pagsasama dahil baka daw maapektuhan ang pakikipagkaibigan at iwasan sya.. Yung tipong pag may kasama si friendship na iba, nagseselos na wala naman sa lugar, pero syempre wag pahalata, kunyari happy sya for friendship.. Aba ! Oi lakasan mo ang loob at baka mamaya forever mong pagsisihan yan kaw rin. Minsan pa naman pareho kayong naghihintayan. . Hmmp! 6. Born-to-be-one (Autistic) Eto yung nasa palad na ang pagiging single daw.. Walang reasons.. Basta lang nabuhay sya sa mundo na mag-isa at feeling nya mamatay sya sa mundo ng mag-isa.. Kesyo magmamadre o magpapari na lang.. Asa kang tatanggapin ka pa noh! 5. Wrong Place May nakaranas na ba nito? Yung pakiramdam mo nasa ibang mundo ka. Yung ang nakakaharap mo e yung mga hindi mo gusto, yung mga hindi mo hinahanap. Alam mo yun? Halimbawa nasa ibang bansa ka, pero ang hinahanap mo e yung amoy ng nasa sariling bayan mo. O kaya naman e nasa sarili mong bayan ka, nasa normal na lipunan, pero ikaw ang abnormal at hindi mo kayang sabihin na abnormal din ang hanap mo kung ayaw mong ibitin ka nila ng patiwarik. 4. Wrong Time Eto yung mga tao na sinasabi na "hindi pa ako ready e, bata pa kasi ako" o kaya naman "hindi pa ako handa sa panahong ito, wala pa ako kayang ipagmalaki.. " Yes meron pong ganyan.. Yung feeling nila may tamang panahon para sa love.. Awwwwwww.. Aba kelan yun? Pag uugod ugod ka na at yung time mo e bitin na? O baka naman pag pang out of time ka na? Oist, sugod lang ng sugod.. 3. Si parents kasi! Yes, factor din ang komunidad na ginagalawan mo.. Una, ayaw pa ni mader o pader na magkaron ka kahit 22 anyos ka na at kelangan umabot ka muna raw ng 40 bago magkaroon ng gf/bf.. O kaya naman ikaw mismo! Takot sa sasabihin ni parents at ni kapitbahay na tsismosa sa magiging kasama mo.. Aba ikaw ba naman ang sabihan na "Alam mo hindi kayo bagay.. Langit at lupa kayo.." Awwwww.. Payo ko sayo, Pakialam nila diba? Palibhasa inggit! 2. Traumatic Experience Eto kalimitan ang reason ng marami. Ayaw ko na! Takot na ako mangyari pa ang nangyari dati! O diba ang drama ng layp? Yes, tama ka.. Eto yung dahil sa past relationship mo, e until na ayaw mo ng magkaroon at sinumpa mo na ata ang magmahal.. Dahil sa pinagpalit ka sa mas pangit, o kaya naman iniwan ka ng walang word na bye-bye, o dahil binugbog ka! Ano pa ba? Madami yan. wag na nating isa isahin at baka tumulo si tears.. Heheh! Gayunpaman, eto lang masasabi ko mga hija at hijo.. Iba't-iba ang lasa ng pag-ibig.. May mapait, may mapakla, may matamis at may maasim.. Aba mapalad ka at natikman mo ang iba't-ibang lasa nito.. Kaya ikaw, do not be afraid to fall in love again.. Malay mo sweetiness na ang malasahin mo next time.. E di panalo ka sa lotto.. Yan ang nagpapalakas sayo, yan ang bumubuhay sayo, ang pag-ibig.. Tsk! Drama! 1. EX to the nth power Oi aminin!!! LOVE parin si ex kahit 1 or 2 yrs na ang nakakalipas. . May ganito naman.. Yung tipong ilang taon ang nakakalipas, hindi parin makalimutan si ex.. Yung pinagsamahan, yung tawanan, yung iyakan, at lahat ng nangyari sa inyo nung kayo pa.. Malungkot man at sa kung anumang kadahilanan, maganda man o masama ito, kelangan nyong magpaalam sa isa't isa.. YES, after a year sasabihin natin, im over him/her na, pero pag-usapan natin ang love at ang nangyari sa ating relastionship from the past, TADANNNNNNNNNNNNN, eto na, sya agad ang naalala mo.. At habang nagkukwento ka, ouch may kirot, o kaya may ngiti at may bumabagabag sa ating kalooban.. Ano kaya yun? AMININ mo na kasi MAHAL mo pa si EX.. Isa lang ang masasabi ko, well mahirap sya kalimutan, alam ko yan, pero open your heart and makipagdate ka, lumabas ka, at try to entertain someone.. Wag mo ikumpara si ex sa iba.. walked on runway at 7:26:00 PM
The Color of My Kiss
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Lately
Lately:
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Lost
I can't believe it. For some unknown reason, I feel empty. I'm not supposed to be feeling this way. I'm blessed with a lot of things and for a lot of reasons. I have a great family, and a really great life. But I can't help it. I'm feeling empty and keeping silent about it. I hate me. I'm hating me right now. Oh snap. I hate everything. walked on runway at 9:49:00 PM
Welcome back Migo!!!!! :)
Last night was super super fun! :) Together with Sab, Rap and Migo, we went to the Fort and spent the night drinking and dancing. We hit Pier One first and drank a bit c/o Migo. We talked and was with Migo's cousin Anna's cousins so we met new people. Next, we went to Piedra to dance to their really great tunes and finally hit Jaipur, where we got in via the VIP guestlist c/o Migo's cousin Anna. Thanks talaga. :) It was really hot in Jaipur but it was worth it! We had fun! :) So we went home tired from dancing and yet we have one helluva night with Migo! Welcome back! :)    More pics at camz02.multiply.com and rapsky.multiply.com :) walked on runway at 6:50:00 PM
Makiling 07
Highschool classmates are love. They will always be. I missed these guys. I'm so thankful I got to be with them again and Makiling is the best place to be at. The earlier trip got there around lunch time, Alex and I got there around 5pm. The night was great. Bonding over Cranium (the boardgame), marshmallows and hotdogs, mongolian-like dinner (with matching yellow lights), and of course, over alcoholic drinks (artic, absolut vodka, bubblegum lambanog and jose cuervo). Nothing beats a night of drama, drunk people, and reminiscing. The night was so memorable and impossible to be reduced to just a blog entry. The (soon-to-be) uploaded pics and videos could probably speak for themselves and what happened to us there. Pia, Sab, Rach and I had our bonding sessions and I know I love you girls more. As for the guys, love was still the ultimate topic. Never really outgrown that part yet. They're just your typical hopeless romantics. :) Despite the hangover we all have had one way or the other, the people who were there know deep in their hearts that May 26-27, 2007 would be forever memorable. I know it will be for me. And I'm pretty sure it will be for them as well. Thanks guys! :) Sab Pia Rach Dana Alex Marco Kyle Paul Enzo Rap walked on runway at 10:35:00 PM
For the longest time
It's been forever since I wrote here. No internet in my room, did not go home for the weekend again. A lot of things have happened already, and I'm so lazy to write about it now. Or maybe, I just don't want to because I know some people will never really understand. I don't understand myself either. Why did that have to happen in the first place? I'm so stupid to let it happen. I hate myself for the fact that it happened and there was nothing I could do to stop it. walked on runway at 1:05:00 PM
Backaches.
I still haven't gotten my bed. I still ate alone during dinner. I still slept on the floor. And now that I am home for my long weekend (NOT), I am gonna make the most out of my bed here. Hooray! :) A crazy week. I don't even wanna think about it. Another one of those "Ambeth Ocampo surprise exams" and the sleepless nights on the floor. Gaah. Dammit. But tomorrow's a great great day! They are gonna deliver the mattresses already! Yey! :) No more sleepless night on the floor! Haha! The past week's events: Tuesday, May 8
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Thursday, May 10
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Moving in. Being places.
So yesterday, I moved in to our new studio type place in Abada. :) It was a 2-part lipatan. Last saturday, we brought in the appliances first then last night, we came again to bring in my stuff na. I'll be alone for the rest of the summer semester since JV's moving in mga June pa. Everything's there na, except the mattress so you can just imagine how I slept last night. Haha! Well, about sleeping. It wasn't a good night for me. I kept waking in the middle of the night. I was up around 1:30, 2:30 and 4:30 before I finally got myself out of bed by 7am. I thought maybe it was because 1) no mattress=uncomfortable sleep or 2) I was alone in a new place. So whichever is the reason, it was valid. Being alone last night felt weird. I mean, in my previous dorm, I stayed in for weekends without really anyone there except the usually-ill-tempered caretaker. I just thought that maybe, being alone there last night gave me a sense of being really alone for the first time in my life away from home. No caretaker, just me alone in the room. I guess I can say that for the rest of the time, I'll have to deal with boredom by bumming. I have yet to have the internet installed, as well as the cable. I hope its really soon. :) walked on runway at 12:07:00 PM
Daddy's Birthday! :)
Happy 53rd Birthday Dad! :) Well, I'm so happy that at 53, you are still the cheerful, major kulit dad that you are. Thank you for always trying to be patient with the 3 of us, no matter how stubborn we get. That goes for Mom too. Thank you for each day that you make each one of us feel loved by your really silly jokes, extra-irritating finger thingy, and just all that you do. We may get really pissed off with it but you know we love you despite of it all. Sorry for all the times we've disappointed you and Mom. You know us, we get stupid and along with all the stupidity comes the stupid decisions. Hope you be more patient with us. We love you so much Dad! walked on runway at 7:25:00 PM
1st of May - 19th Monthsary and Antipolo Trip
Happy 19th Monthsary to me and Bri! Yey! What a great great day! :) Earlier today, Bri (and my bro Pao's GF Kaye) joined me and my family to our annual Antipolo trip. Just a brief story, my family and I annually go to Antipolo to hear mass every May 1st. This has been my parents' devotion to both Our Lady of Good Voyage, Nuestra Seniora de Buenviaje, and St. Joseph, Patron Saint of Workers. So we met with Bri in front of Tiendesitas around 7:15am and headed to Antipolo via the Rosario, Pasig route. We heard mass at 8:00am then went to my tita's, my dad's sister's, apartment near the church there. Shortly after waiting for the drinks to be bought, we went to Aguas Azules, which I think is in Angono already. My dad and his family had their reunion there and since my Mommy Nadette, my tita, has access, she fixed the venue for that reunion. :) So for most of the day, we all just enjoyed the day and baked ourselves under the sun! :) And it was quite memorable too since it was the first time Bri met my dad's relatives. They liked him and even joked around too! Haha! Great monthsary right there! :) I love you Bri. Thanks for coming with us! :) walked on runway at 8:55:00 PM
PlanSem at Tagaytay with AMP EB :)
Yesterday and today's PlanSem was one of the most interesting weekends of my life. It opened me up to the many firsts in my life. First ever planning seminar I have attended. First ever flip cup and circle of death inuman card games. First ever crazy night with [[aMp]] people. First ever trip to Royale Tagaytay with friends. First ever time to actually bond with HR people (Peter, Edwin, Wanda, Trisha and Hermo). There are more and I can't enumerate all. But a few things are for sure: I enjoyed the weekend, I learned a lot from the presentations of the CIPs and I felt really proud to be a part of the team. And right now, and hopefully for the rest of the incoming semester, I can say that I am now more empowered to serve the organization and learn from everything and everyone. I can't thank everyone enough for the memorable weekend. Thanks Jig, Lee, Francis DG, Francis Fabia, Anika, Wanda, Edwin, Carina, Miko, Kara, JR, Hermo, Trisha, Oni, Tommy, and Jay. You guys made me feel a part of [[aMp]] already. :) Labels: amp walked on runway at 11:22:00 PM
Freakin Surprise Long Test in History!
I'm taking back what I said about sir Ambeth. I think I he's really crazy! Haha! I mean, a SURPRISE LONG TEST!!!!! What the hell right?! 4 freakin questions, 25 big points each!! And the bonus question! Argh! It was a BONUS question for crying out loud!!! Decode an/a Alibata/Baybayin text. But no one knew that the question decoded was supposed to be answered pala! Geeeeeesh! And to top it all off, I LEFT MY BOOK AT HOME!!!!!! It was open-notes, open-book and open-readings pa naman! But who knew such tragedy would come into my life and take my happiness away?! NO ONE. Geeeeeeeeesh!! I'm still not over it. Kahit kanina pa yung 10:30am. Boooooooo. walked on runway at 10:12:00 PM
Manila day 2
Again, I headed to Manila. My destination this time? The National Museum :) Bri and I went to check the pre-Hispanic artifacts and galleries. We also went to check on the replica of the infamous Spoliarium by the late great Juan Luna. Oh, it was so much fun! I'm really learning from history! :) Thank you Sir Ambeth Ocampo. :) Definitely a crazy history class filled with crazy nonsense trivias yet a class worth attending. :) walked on runway at 8:34:00 PM
Another day in Manila
Earlier today, Brian and I visited the Metropolitan museum at the Bangko Sentral ng Pilipinas complex. I had to go since I have a paper due on Friday about it and the National Museum. So we checked out the gold and pottery collection of the BSP and went on to see the development of money at the money museum. It was so educational. I think I might wanna go back again. Haha. :p But before we actually went there, we decided to eat lunch at McDo beside DLSU. And it was worth it since I got to see Geli again! And what really happens when Geli and I get together? I do nothing yet she laughs. Crazy and something we're both used to. Haha! :p Missed you Pie! :) walked on runway at 11:45:00 PM
Efforts
My latest accomplishment: [[aMp]] Project Head! I am excited about doing the job, getting things done, making friends and seeing people happy! :) I passed my resume and project head form just last Saturday. I actually thought I wouldn't get to submit anymore since the deadline was supposedly on April 15 pa. Then I got a go signal from an officer that I can still pass my requirements! :) Hooray! And I'm happy to be given the chance to serve and work. Haay.. Maybe I miss doing stuff not related to academics. Just like good 'ol highschool. LSYC, YFC and PPCRV. I'm excited! I'm excited! :) PlanSem on April 28-April30 at Tagaytay :) That makes me more excited! Fun fun fun! Out-of-town trip+work+fun-loving orgmates=the best PlanSem ever! :) Labels: amp walked on runway at 11:00:00 PM
First of Summer - Classes!
Summer classes started last monday and because of that, i forgot to blog! haha ohwell.. so anyway, how was it like? great and short. just 3 hours, an hour and a half each. I am taking Ec 111 and Hi 165. Eco is great, it's like Ec102 all over again, only a different prof, new classmates and no Brian. Hi 165 is fun too! As in Ambeth Ocampo rocks the classroom with his silly nonsense facts and super funny stories! Haha! He's so cool and evil at the same time! Cancel the highest exam?! Gaah. So the past few days have been really busy. Daily quizzes in eco and papers last tuesday and today for histo. What a crazy summer i have. But it's all good. :) **brian's back in the gym! moro moro moro! haha! go baby, be macho again! :) **and I HAVE to go on a diet and exercise. seriously, im getting fatter by the minute! boo. **what to do over the weekend: national and metropolitan museum visits for histo, ppcrv meeting, tambay at alex's tom night, eco homework, new apartment visit :) Labels: ateneo summer 07 walked on runway at 11:51:00 PM
Pansol, Laguna and Vivant Flats :)
Pansol, Laguna and Vivant Flats in Filinvest. What do they have in common? April 14 (and April 15). I had so much fun last Saturday. Met Brian's Tito and Tita and spent a day with them. I got to bond once again with my loves, the SF. Gaa. I sure missed you hanging out with the craziest people on earth. The earlier part Saturday was spent with Brian and his relatives on an outing to Laguna. They first picked me up at home then headed to Petron for breakfast. We grabbed drinks from Starbucks and food at McDo. Then we went on to Pansol where his tito, tita and cousins were already at. We swam for hours, ate a lot and just had a great great time. As we left the place, we headed to the buko pie store. After which, they brought me to South Supermarket at Westgate Alabang where my friends were doing groceries for the planned girls' night out. The day was great, I met Ate Sarah who's super nice was also able to talk to Ate gay.I was also able to see Leeron and Zeth again. They are so energetic and they know how to swim too! Waah! I feel so inferior! haha! As for the other half of my day, I went out with SF again! Well, we chose to be nice little girls and just stayed at the Alcala's condo at Vivant Flats. I met with the at South Supermarket, they we all headed to the condo. We went for a little night swimming. And there's more to just the night swimming. Rach actually swam in her underwear! Oh, did she look naked! Haha! Stupid tan colored bra! But at least you went swimming with us! Haha! Too bad you left and didn't sleepover. Oh and I need to see the pictures too Rach! Haha! And yes, we were nice little girls but we aren't gonna let the night pass without at least a little drinking session. I mixed Gin-Orange juice and Gin-Iced tea for us and went on for some more chikahan. Played Joy's card game too. Just before sleeping, this crazy thing happened. Since we all had alcohol in our systems, we were so sabaw already. We all remembered how KB made a hirit while I was telling them something when we were still in the pool. Out of nowhere, I blurted "Pak You" and the rest was history. Back in the condo unit, I was making kwento again when KB butted in again and I gave her what we all named "Pak you points". Whoever says some hirit that was sablay gets a pay you point from me. I was the only one who is to give 'em, no one else. So as our chikahan progressed and as they made sablay hirits, I gave out pak you points so generously that KB and Ivy earned the most number of points. Joy, who had the least number of points, only having 2 pak you points, finished with the highest number since I decided to her 20 pak you points for sleeping on us for a couple of minutes! In the end, she had 22 pak you points! Haha! And yeah, we also had a dance step for it! Each time they reported the number of points they have, each one should dance! It was so hilarious! Haha! And finally for the night, when we were all wrapped in our blankies, KB just ended the night with a blast! She had this funny/weird way of brushing her teeth, with sound effects! Grabe, we were laughing so hard we just couldn't breathe anymore. Haha!The next day, we woke up late from sleeping around 4:30am. We had brunch and watched ASAP '07. We turned the channel to GMA 7 where they aired a coverage of Pacquiao's match. Just when Pacman was about to do his entrance, I told them, " Gags, kapag and background ng entrance niya yung kanta niya, sobrang comedy talaga nun!" Then roughly a few seconds later, we heard the intro and realized one thing - his entrance song WAS his song!! Hahaha! Grabe, another super super hilarious moment of nonstop laughing! After that, we settled on watching Sukob then went home after. I was dead tired but I sure enjoyed myself during the last weekend of my summer vacation. Thanks to everyone who made these things so real for me. :) walked on runway at 9:09:00 PM
Summer's end - so soon.
Today, I had to go to school to pick up my grades and regform. And that was when it hit me that my much valued vacation is soon coming to a close. So sad. Hello April 16. Hello school. Hello end of summer vacation. Bye alone time at home. Bye movie marathons. Bye One Tree Hill and Grey's Anatomy. Gaah. I want to extend this vacation. I really really do. But I guess it's a just now thing. I'll probably sneak and watch even if school starts already. I can do something about it. I sure can do. walked on runway at 8:40:00 PM
Another Drama
I haven't been good at maintaining blog sites. And yet, here I am adding another one. I guess it's one blog per personality. The drama of my so-called life. Sometimes, I just can't understand why some people choose to end a friendship even before it starts. Here you are, trying to offer your hand for a possible friendship and the other person just turns his/her back on you, and starts to walk away. I don't get it. I just can't. walked on runway at 3:42:00 PM |
