It's been forever since I wrote here. No internet in my room, did not go home for the weekend again. A lot of things have happened already, and I'm so lazy to write about it now. Or maybe, I just don't want to because I know some people will never really understand. I don't understand myself either. Why did that have to happen in the first place? I'm so stupid to let it happen. I hate myself for the fact that it happened and there was nothing I could do to stop it.

Now I wish I never have to as stupid. And right now, I'm just hoping things will be better.